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[Q] To be or not to be, that's the question.

In my heart, I would like to study abroad/ participate in exchange program.
But deep down, I am afraid.  I am not sure who should I talk to.
Not my sister, neither with my mother or friends.
The sister I know cant give me any advice. Because it does not bother her. She will only give me an not-so-like answer.

As for my mother, I know she will be very supportive for my decision even tough she does not fully understand.

As for my friend, I decided to keep it low until every thing turn out to be confirmed.



And, now I met with the Deputy Dean. I become to wonder more.
Am I doing it right? Should I just go according with the normal routine and graduate with my friends together? Will I be enough money since I am on my own spending? Is this really what I want?

I am S.C.A.R.E.D.

Suddenly, I think will I be regretted in the future if I choose the normal way. I do not know...

[Random] Scene of Glee- Evil Kitty

Diet is a woman's lifetime's job, some say.
If  you are weight-conscious.

Yes, I am kinda agree that. Except woman need to slim down in a healthy way beside controlling your weight through diet. Because, stop eating is not gonna to work it, no matter now or in a longer period.

It just N.O.T. W.O.R.K.I.N.G.

I admit that I am very aware with my weight. And, all I do is cutting down mainly on my dinner and get a jog sometimes ( Waking up needs procrastination. =)  )

And, why I brought this up? Because I watched Glee season 8 where the EVIL Kitty kept on mind-controlling Marley was as fat as her mom ( I think her mom was obese due to marriage problem). Worse still, Marley believe her. That is something called weight in this world or measuring tape, honey. I just cant bear to watch the scene where Marley forcefully puke after having meals. It was too painful to watch. Hope someone will stop Marley or keep Kitty (bitch) away from her.

Do not get me wrong. I personally enjoy foods. I loves cake and chocolate, but only for once in a while. Sweet things like these should be enjoy once in a blue moon so that you will appreciate what it brings to you. Overeating just spoiled that sweetness.



Episode 8 of Glee just made me sick despite some song choices are good. I need a moment to calm down butterflies in my stomach.  Now, excuse me.