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[Q] To be or not to be, that's the question.

In my heart, I would like to study abroad/ participate in exchange program.
But deep down, I am afraid.  I am not sure who should I talk to.
Not my sister, neither with my mother or friends.
The sister I know cant give me any advice. Because it does not bother her. She will only give me an not-so-like answer.

As for my mother, I know she will be very supportive for my decision even tough she does not fully understand.

As for my friend, I decided to keep it low until every thing turn out to be confirmed.



And, now I met with the Deputy Dean. I become to wonder more.
Am I doing it right? Should I just go according with the normal routine and graduate with my friends together? Will I be enough money since I am on my own spending? Is this really what I want?

I am S.C.A.R.E.D.

Suddenly, I think will I be regretted in the future if I choose the normal way. I do not know...

[Random] Scene of Glee- Evil Kitty

Diet is a woman's lifetime's job, some say.
If  you are weight-conscious.

Yes, I am kinda agree that. Except woman need to slim down in a healthy way beside controlling your weight through diet. Because, stop eating is not gonna to work it, no matter now or in a longer period.

It just N.O.T. W.O.R.K.I.N.G.

I admit that I am very aware with my weight. And, all I do is cutting down mainly on my dinner and get a jog sometimes ( Waking up needs procrastination. =)  )

And, why I brought this up? Because I watched Glee season 8 where the EVIL Kitty kept on mind-controlling Marley was as fat as her mom ( I think her mom was obese due to marriage problem). Worse still, Marley believe her. That is something called weight in this world or measuring tape, honey. I just cant bear to watch the scene where Marley forcefully puke after having meals. It was too painful to watch. Hope someone will stop Marley or keep Kitty (bitch) away from her.

Do not get me wrong. I personally enjoy foods. I loves cake and chocolate, but only for once in a while. Sweet things like these should be enjoy once in a blue moon so that you will appreciate what it brings to you. Overeating just spoiled that sweetness.



Episode 8 of Glee just made me sick despite some song choices are good. I need a moment to calm down butterflies in my stomach.  Now, excuse me.

All I remembered for yesterday was I literally open my mouth and breathe manually.
A total Nose-block.

And it is like choosing survival or sleep. (Both are VERY important)
No use of choosing sleep when u cant breathe, right? (Not that I can choose)
So mind-awaking (with eye closed) the whole night. Desperately need to sit up and breathe (unblock one nose nostril )


Conclusion: I am a ZOMBIE today.

{LIFE] I dreamed ....

People say if you have a dream last night, mean that you are not in ur comfortable sleep yesterday. 

In fact, only tired (?) people dreamed. 

Not sure, about that one. And, I dreamed a lot these days. 

Pull together the pieces... and I realise most of my thoughts became my dreams at night. 

These days, I have been distracted or pondering much whether or not to save money to buy a laptop/ tablet. 

But, My "NEW" laptop hanged on me so often I began to realise this laptop is even worse than my 10 inches laptop. Both hanged on me so often, I forced to be learn patient. This "NEW" laptop was used by my brother, father, and me ( 2-months-old mistress), and HE is very very shy as HE often freeze my screen. A few minutes later, blue screen popped up and forced me to look at those long, dull lines and reset my laptop.

However, on the good site, HE reset pretty fast except I need to keep track which files or windows have I done/ opened. 

Back to the topic, I dreamed of having a tablet although I have been longing for one, Of course, it is a slim chance I am getting one. If my laptop is dead, I am definitely need to have my laptop rather then a tablet. Although the idea of reading notes and bringing tablet seems a very intriguing idea for me. Still, laptop come first. Tablet, second. (Hopefully)

Weirdly, In that dream or the next night, I dreamed of Chang-min (TVQX) handling me a tablet or bringing me some nice places which I have forget right after I wake up. The only explanation is I came across the article that Victoria is dating or going out v him in an article that discovered by netizens through a spoon reflection. Yup, S.P.O.O.N reflection. Amazing.

Okie, I admitted I only can remember 2 dreams at the moment. I think that's all for now.
I hope my dream came true one day. A young lady can dream for now.


Cheers.



XXX