Laptop

I have dream to have my own laptop with faults.
Have been undecided for 2-3 years.

Now, Finally here he is.
But the excitement doesn't kick in as expected. Still remember what you tell me. Always feel uncomfortable around you especially when you are using questioning tone. It just felt like you talking about my choice of course. Intimidating. Sis asked why I don't look thrilled having a new laptop. I don't have an answer either.

Using my money to buy. I see nothing wrong on this.
But you say I SHOULD use it else where. I felt bad. Pretty bad.


To get positive support in our family, is like finding a gem in front yawn. Yeah, I felt deflated.
Sister will never understand problem. She will only understand her own problem.
Based on my understanding.
I guess I am emotional. Like now.
Sucker punch. sucker punch punch.

Continue with the sketch.






You sucks, world sucks
Now, I need positive energy like A LOT. NOW

Awkward situation

The a.w.k.w.a.r.d moment 

staying in a room is

when your roommate is having heated argument on the other line.

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[UNI] Being Threaten with Marks

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Finishing test just half an hour ago.

Most of the questions put a smile on me except for the last few minutes after the test.
I was threatened by lecturer who said he will deduce my marks, more accurately give me a ZERO.
Why?
Because I put out the question papers. which I immediately handed back to him before he left the hall. His threaten gave my heart a sink. Just because I put out the return-paper. DAmn PAPER, THE FUCKING HILARIOUS PAPER.

First thing came to my mind : How many marks does this test occupied?
10%

Okie, that's a lot I guess.
Feeling extremely deflated by the incident, then I wondered why the lecturer was so concerned about the papers. And I came to my own conclusion is, He may be lazy to create new questions. Admit it or not, I score much because of the last few years test papers as the questions are "sebiji" or we called it copy and paste and edit a few words. I have no opposition for that. Just being mood-less when I thought back the lecturer's harsh words.

"I WILL GIVE YOU ZERO MARK!"

Then, I think again. How miracle of ZERO mark embedded in my mindset, that I immediately felt the shock or threaten by the words. I must be programmed to be afraid of decreasing-mark-system.

Nothing can do much now. Temporary.
What if he does really give me ZERO mark, I will... cry?.... maybe. Gonna have a talk with him Or find someones' help? But, I don't think other lecturers will help me. Nobody wanna be a Busy Parker (errr... is that what we call?)


Wow, feeling better now after writing it out. Wanna put some vulgar words, but that will degrade my blog so I decided to use those icons to represent my current emotion chart.

And, now if you can excuse me.


!!! ... @@@@@^^^7891345+++^^^^^^^^^^^!!!!!!!! BULLSDIW!!!





 thank you.
So sleepy after study whole night yesterday. Get some rest now...


Chiao

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愛情和戰爭2-偶像特輯:公平的愛

After watching this one episode, I feel so sad... It's really sad for a lovely couple to a pair of marriage couple who only have obligation and argument left behind.

Fairness in relationship?
I wonder that even exist. Even it has, it needs a lot of cover up and tolerance within a relationship.
Everything seems perfect during dating period become a defect in a marriage life. Maybe both parties think they pick the wrong one based on the dating period. Dating needs a lot of imagination bubbles, but reality sets in when two lives together.

All we need to say is because both does not understand each other well enough. Love can conquer all?
I believe Courage is the basic portion of love.



Just a review.

[DIARY]

[Q] To be or not to be, that's the question.

In my heart, I would like to study abroad/ participate in exchange program.
But deep down, I am afraid.  I am not sure who should I talk to.
Not my sister, neither with my mother or friends.
The sister I know cant give me any advice. Because it does not bother her. She will only give me an not-so-like answer.

As for my mother, I know she will be very supportive for my decision even tough she does not fully understand.

As for my friend, I decided to keep it low until every thing turn out to be confirmed.



And, now I met with the Deputy Dean. I become to wonder more.
Am I doing it right? Should I just go according with the normal routine and graduate with my friends together? Will I be enough money since I am on my own spending? Is this really what I want?

I am S.C.A.R.E.D.

Suddenly, I think will I be regretted in the future if I choose the normal way. I do not know...

[Random] Scene of Glee- Evil Kitty

Diet is a woman's lifetime's job, some say.
If  you are weight-conscious.

Yes, I am kinda agree that. Except woman need to slim down in a healthy way beside controlling your weight through diet. Because, stop eating is not gonna to work it, no matter now or in a longer period.

It just N.O.T. W.O.R.K.I.N.G.

I admit that I am very aware with my weight. And, all I do is cutting down mainly on my dinner and get a jog sometimes ( Waking up needs procrastination. =)  )

And, why I brought this up? Because I watched Glee season 8 where the EVIL Kitty kept on mind-controlling Marley was as fat as her mom ( I think her mom was obese due to marriage problem). Worse still, Marley believe her. That is something called weight in this world or measuring tape, honey. I just cant bear to watch the scene where Marley forcefully puke after having meals. It was too painful to watch. Hope someone will stop Marley or keep Kitty (bitch) away from her.

Do not get me wrong. I personally enjoy foods. I loves cake and chocolate, but only for once in a while. Sweet things like these should be enjoy once in a blue moon so that you will appreciate what it brings to you. Overeating just spoiled that sweetness.



Episode 8 of Glee just made me sick despite some song choices are good. I need a moment to calm down butterflies in my stomach.  Now, excuse me.

All I remembered for yesterday was I literally open my mouth and breathe manually.
A total Nose-block.

And it is like choosing survival or sleep. (Both are VERY important)
No use of choosing sleep when u cant breathe, right? (Not that I can choose)
So mind-awaking (with eye closed) the whole night. Desperately need to sit up and breathe (unblock one nose nostril )


Conclusion: I am a ZOMBIE today.

{LIFE] I dreamed ....

People say if you have a dream last night, mean that you are not in ur comfortable sleep yesterday. 

In fact, only tired (?) people dreamed. 

Not sure, about that one. And, I dreamed a lot these days. 

Pull together the pieces... and I realise most of my thoughts became my dreams at night. 

These days, I have been distracted or pondering much whether or not to save money to buy a laptop/ tablet. 

But, My "NEW" laptop hanged on me so often I began to realise this laptop is even worse than my 10 inches laptop. Both hanged on me so often, I forced to be learn patient. This "NEW" laptop was used by my brother, father, and me ( 2-months-old mistress), and HE is very very shy as HE often freeze my screen. A few minutes later, blue screen popped up and forced me to look at those long, dull lines and reset my laptop.

However, on the good site, HE reset pretty fast except I need to keep track which files or windows have I done/ opened. 

Back to the topic, I dreamed of having a tablet although I have been longing for one, Of course, it is a slim chance I am getting one. If my laptop is dead, I am definitely need to have my laptop rather then a tablet. Although the idea of reading notes and bringing tablet seems a very intriguing idea for me. Still, laptop come first. Tablet, second. (Hopefully)

Weirdly, In that dream or the next night, I dreamed of Chang-min (TVQX) handling me a tablet or bringing me some nice places which I have forget right after I wake up. The only explanation is I came across the article that Victoria is dating or going out v him in an article that discovered by netizens through a spoon reflection. Yup, S.P.O.O.N reflection. Amazing.

Okie, I admitted I only can remember 2 dreams at the moment. I think that's all for now.
I hope my dream came true one day. A young lady can dream for now.


Cheers.



XXX

[Random] Bears~~

How's cute ~
Can I have one of them?




*from movie,  "Brave"

[LIFE] 'Kid', It is war!

It is a war!
That is the reason why I hate 5 years old kid!!!!!!!!!
Fake tear will earn the sympathy of the adults. So easy~
o0o

It is a war!!!!

Accompany her whole day. And this is what I get.
Kid is devil with no manner.Obedient kid only appears in drama.
Not gonna deceived by her innocent smile anymore.

This is my limit.

Argggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Self-explode***




Need time to cool down......

F.U.C.K  O.F.F

mind your own shit.

[LIFE] 闷闷地

因为无所事事，老是糊事乱想。
心有点闷闷地…… 应该是犹豫又找上门了。

最近老是有人有意无意的提起要旅游，
而我，也不敢也不想抱着太期待的心情，
只是客观的态度去听，反而心情没那么不开心。

厌倦了老问向他人，
倒不如现在慢慢地收集想要到达的旅游景点，
因该到了大学毕业，
我就可以独自去旅游…… 到那时，没有人再也可以说我不是。

在那时之前，书和网志便是为我解解渴。
而现在的我，必须学会忍耐。

南极光

为何总喜欢旅游？

很简单，因为我想逃走。 我想，因为厌倦/讨厌太规矩的生活。

和我喜欢看小说和电视剧一样，我要逃……逃到故事里。

忍耐是我必须要学会的本领。

[UNI] Second year already?!!

Okie, I admitted I am an inconsistent blogger.
And now, my second year 1st semester already over
and I am in HOLIDAY mood, babe!!!


Anyway, I actually keep this place my hidden seek out.
Dumping all I want here. Although I admit my English grammar still sucks.
And, I came to realize I haven't actually write out my new year resolution yet.

May this year filled with happiness and cuteness overdose~

School 2013

So, here it goes.

2013-- NEW Year Resolution
1.  Japanese Proficiency Test     Yup. Still haven't materialize last year. Gonna do it no matter what this year. Best will be in July, if Ipoh have it, that's it. Ha.
2. PHP/ Webpage.    After the Java's incident, made me realize nothing is more important than the early headstart. Nobody gonna guide you along the way. All I have is myself. So gonna buck up and suck it up.
3. Prepare Graduation Presents    One for Rommie (Poh), one for my ridiculous sister. Why are everyone graduating so fast? T.T
4. A Trip for myself ( July~ September)    This time, I made myself promise not to change my determinate decision for no course. Enough for the unlimited waiting for so-called-I-see-You-see-I-Free-Maybe answer. One word. *face palm**
5. Planning for exchange    Gonna plan. Not an easy decision. Haiz....All things came with a price.
6. Japanese Blog.     Looking up at Hangkukdrama.com blog. Hard to find such interesting learning blog with English. Aim high.


Buy List:A smartphone.
Change:  Attitude toward life. I feel I still have more to change on this. My temper, my word, my action. Try to make my life a little bit crazy with surprise.
Unchanged:  Still a korean drama addict. 

That's all for now. Maybe/not update.
Watch out!

Flower Boy Next Door